violetcandy: 2009

Monday, July 06, 2009

Beloved sweetheart bastard. Not a day since then
I haven't wished him dead. Prayed for it
so hard I've dark green pebbles for eyes,
ropes on the back of my hands I could strangle with.

Spinster. I stink and remember. Whole days
in bed cawing Nooooo at the wall; the dress
yellowing, trembling if I open the wardrobe;
the slewed mirror, full-length, her, myself, who did this

to me? Puce curses that are sounds not words.
Some nights better, the lost body over me,
my fluent tongue in its mouth in its ear
then down till suddenly bite awake. Love's

hate behind a white veil; a red balloon bursting
in my face. Bang. I stabbed at a wedding cake.
Give me a male corpse for a long slow honeymoon.
Don't think it's only the heart that b-b-b-breaks.

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Sex

Pretty sure Ghost of Girlfriends past rates on the same level at Marley and Me but atleast Jennifer Aniston was shoved down my throat like this piece of shit. Not even my slight crush on Matthew McConaughey can rectify it.

I found it again...

Girls

Kat Says:
You got this thing that really makes me hot
You got a lot and more when you get caught
You got this thing that follows me around
You fucking bitch I hope your insides rot

Liar Liar Liar
You see the stars through eyes lit up with lies
You got your stories all twisted up in mine
You were born with glue instead of spine
Of thee I sing tied to a string

Bruise Violet

Courtney Says:
Good sister, bad sister. Better burn that dress, sister. Scar tissue, blood blister. Suck up on the dreg, sister. But I can't and I want to so bad and, I try but I can't and I want to so bad and, I try but I can't and I want to so bad and. Good sister, bad sister. You're different from the rest, sister. Choke, strangle, rip, trist her. Sell me down the river, sister. I try, but I can't and I want to so bad and, I try, but I can't and I want to so bad and, I try, I try, I try. Come here and sit and talk about it just for a second, yeah, you sit back down. You're choking on big, black, bloody mouthfuls of it. You left me lying in your dog descent, and choking on your candy flesh. And I'll be the biggest scar in your back. Run down, and jagged, and naked, and black. I'll be the biggest dick that you ever had. Hey, want it bad, hey want it bad, you want it. Good sister, bad sister. Tell me what you want, sister. Better watch your back, sister. Even you cannot resist her. But, I can't and I want to so bad and, I try but I can't and I want to so bad and, I try but I can't and I want to so bad and, I try but I can't and, I try, fuck try. Sugar star eyes fall down and talk to me. She comes to crucify all who now release. I am not in a ruby to grease, and sugar comes from her arteries. I'll be the biggest scar. Run down and jagged, and naked, and black. I'll be the biggest scar in your sky. Hey, want it bad, you want it bad, you want it bad. Sugar star, she is incredulous. All over, wipe her feet, rips off her dress. She wants you, in her descent. You're choking on her candy flesh. I'll be the biggest scar in your back. Run down and jagged, and naked, black. I'll be the biggest dick that you ever had. Hey, want it bad, you want it bad, you want it......

You think your so fucking smart, I'm tearing your lies apart

Friday, May 01, 2009

BACKSTABBER

Words, Wide Night

Somewhere on the other side of this wide night
and the distance between us. I am thinking of you.
The room is turning slowly away from the moon.

This is pleasurable. Or shall I cross that out and say
it is sad? In one of the tenses I singing
an impossible song of desire that you cannot hear.

La lala la. See? I close my eyes and imagine
the dark hills I would have to cross
to reach you. For I am in love with you and this

is what it is like or what it is like in words.

Carol Ann Duffy.